It Has Been Awhile.

It has been awhile.

I’m kind of happy that no one even remembers this little blog anymore, much less reads it, because I need a little bit of private time to remember how to do this.

Let’s cut to the chase and talk about why we are here: we are coming up on a year of quarantine and since I live with just an obnoxious cat, I have essentially been alone for an entire year. I could have been a solo astronaut to Mars in less time than that.

As of late, my mental health has not been so great. Quarantine has given me a pretty nasty bit of low grade depressions and a whole lot of dumb work stress has given me some anxiety and I can’t say that I really developed any healthy coping strategies for all of that over the past year.

In the last couple of weeks I feel like I hit a wall pretty hard and so I started exploring ways to deal with that. We all know that good routine is supposed to be one of those things that can save us from ourselves, so I sat down with a spreadsheet and started working out what a day should look like. I needed to de-center my job in my day, to free myself of that feeling that all I do is wake, work, sleep, repeat. I also knew that I needed an actual schedule so that when I feel compelled to sit down on the couch and doom scroll Twitter for hours, I could point at a schedule and say, “Nope, that is not what I am supposed to be doing right now.”

In the coming days I’ll post the schedule and whatever other things I can come up with. Coming up with content for no one to read is a muscle and I have not used that one in awhile, but I built this time into my mornings, so I will have to start coming up with something!

For now though, the fact that this post — this set of works that I have written — even exists, is a sign that I am having a somewhat successful first day. Now we will just have to wait and see how every other single subsequent day goes.

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